RANSVESTIA

female that they can't digest and accept the idea that one can in fact be a male woman. That is what I have been for 10 years. A woman to all visible and social intents and purposes, but nevertheless still retaining the male organs. Of course I grew my own breasts which helps considerably. I guess most people just can't look at their naked bodies in the mirror and accept the presence of their male organs on the same body with female-type breasts, waved hair and lipstick. The incongruity is too much for them so they settle it by having the male organs removed. Fortunately I have been able to deal comfortably with that matter. I know I'm a woman since that is a psycho-social word, and other people treat me that way which validates my own persuasion.

What would-be transexuals never seem to stop and give much thought to is that whatever is in your head before surgery is still there after it. The surgeon does not perform a pre-fontal lobotomy on you. If their sexual attraction was toward males before surgery so it will be after it-they were gay in their heads before whether they ever experienced it with their bodies or not. Therefore they should have acknowledged that that was their interest and learned to live with it and enjoy it honestly and forthrightly rather than taking the cop out route to gayness by removing the penis and constructing a vagina. What ought to be understood is that, in any sort of sex act, the idea originates in the head and is only put into practice by the genitals. Thus "as a man (or woman) thinketh so is he (or she)" regardless of whether he or she puts the thought into practice or not. As a result there are a lot of people who are in reality homosexually oriented and who go through the surgery to make the genitals "fit" not realizing that their head orientation is what really counts.

This type of person sees homosexuality in terms of the genital anatomy of the two persons involved not realizing that before the genitals could perform the head had to decide. Thus gayness is a head trip long before it is a body trip and in some cases it never becomes a body trip at all-the head trip goes right on. In spite of loud protestations to the contrary by this type of person, the surgery is merely a way of making the anticipated sexual experiences accep- table to themselves as well as to others, because basically the whole idea is sexually motivated.

The other group are the former FPs who don't realize that nobody is going to lift their skirts to check them out and if they want to be

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